Day 14: what would I do if..

Sometimes I will catch myself running through my mind countless scenarios in which I am fantasizing/imagine what I would do in such and such situation if... These scenarios can, at times, be extreme or cause me to begin to question who I really am, and so I think now is a good time to address it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I did not have a family that I was responsible for that I would not take care of myself nor would I push myself to grow, within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in a make believe reality in my mind where I do not have a family that I am responsible, in which I can participate in all of the bad habits that enable me to be stuck where I am, "without consequence"

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in make believe mind realities in which the family that I am responsible for dies or leaves me in some way, within this make believe reality I would then be able to participate in my bad habits in a gluttonous manner

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wish for permission to participate in my bad habits without consequence