Day 15: I am a creator

Yesterday I finally dove into Suno AI, a text to music ai, and made a song to help inspire me and make me feel good about my pursuits. Best for all music. In this song, and the many variations I made of it, I used the phrase "I am a creator" and after playing it over and over and over and repeating it to myself over and over and over I was looking down at my son and I realized, he is a creator, and he will never have any doubt about that

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand that to be made in the image and likeness of God is to be God, myself within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there is an omnipotent all powerful creator that made me in his image and likeness, yet gave me none of their creative expression not seeing realizing and understanding that I was created by a creator, as a creator

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can't stray out of my lane when it comes to creation and that I must follow the path that has been laid in front of me within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only use my power with high intensity and over a long duration to create the fear and doubts that I participate in, not seeing realizing and understanding that I do not have to focus on what I do not want and if I can hold my dream in my mind and focus on it with high enough intensity over a long enough duration that I can create whatever I desire

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be afraid to use my creative power to create something that is outside of my comfort zone, not seeing realizing and understanding that being afraid of what lies beyond my comfort zone will never allow me to use my creative power to create outside of my comfort zone and if within my comfort zone is only what I do not want then I could never expect to get what I do want

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand that if what I was doing in order to create my desires was the correct way to go about creating them, then I would already have them, not seeing realizing and understanding that if what I am doing to create what I want is not creating what I want and I continue doing it then I have an incredibly low teachability index and I will never create my desires

I see realize and understand that I am a creator with the ability to create whatever I like in this world and so 

I commit myself to focus with high intensity and over a long duration on making more money in a month than I ever have until I do so