I thought of something earlier today that I wanted to write about and came up with what I would call a clever title for it, and now I cannot seem to remember so I'll have to come back to that. I noticed a trend with myself yesterday and today. Several months ago I was meeting with a friend and he shared with me a simple and effective app for tracking my habits. After inputting several of the habits I wanted to create into the app I began to track them and did so rather consistently over the duration of three months. At a certain point within those three months I realized that I was kidding myself with the way that I was focusing on supporting myself and my growth, so at that point I sat down and looked at how effectively I was preforming each of the habits I set out to do. After doing so, and being rather dissatisfied with myself, I realized that it was time for something to change and so I began by changing my habits. I listed out for myself a number of habits that I believed, if I incorporated everyday over a thirty period, would move me. Initially I was doing great, completing 91% of my habits week 1 and nearly 80% on week 2, to now being 60% of the way through the week with only 30% of my habits completed. Now for the point, beginning last week and following through to this week. When I started to do more for myself and wanted to start pushing myself more. I started to do more and push myself more with other things that did not pertain to what I had initially set out to do, and ultimately incorporating these other things and pushing myself to do more outside of what I set out to do has become a distraction that is taking away from my focus of what I want to create. I am not writing this to say that when you make up your mind about something that you cannot nor should not do anything else, no. What I am saying is that when you set a focus and an intention to create something then you should maintain your focus on that creation in your mind as priority number one and not allow things that do not fall within that realm to take precedence over what you have set out to do.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to repeat the pattern that follows, to have a dream that I want to create, figure out what I need to do in order to create that, begin to do things and do them well, begin to see results, start to incorporate irrelevant things into the equation that subtract from what things I need to do in order to create my dream, stop participating in the things I need to do, go back to square one
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not focus on what it is that I want to create for a long enough duration to see it manifest in physical reality
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not prioritize what it is that I want to create
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to prioritize what I want to do over what I need to do
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not do the things I need to do because they are boring or repetitious and not bringing me results fast enough
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand that building a foundation 1 brick, 1 level, 1 section at a time is the fastest way to build it and that attempting to shortcut this process only leads to one having to rebuild their foundation again which actually results in things taking longer
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to concern myself with the speed in which the results I desire manifest, not seeing realizing and understanding that no matter how fast the results I desire manifest, I will have to continue showing up time and again in order to create a new result and to continue growing
I see realize and understand that being in a rush to get results NOW has caused me to cut serious corners time and again which has resulted in me having a very weak foundation for success and so
I commit myself to master the basics of Your wish is your command
I commit myself to master the basics of TT
I commit myself to master the basics of self-forgiveness
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