Today is the second time now that I have basically been insulted for the decision that I made to get licensed for life insurance and securities, and today is the second time now where I immediately when into a thought pattern of questioning my decision making process, and doubting myself.
Something was different today though, I didn't try and justify it. I didn't try and defend my stance. I didn't try to make them understand why they were wrong and why the decision I made it right. Because it doesn't matter. No one else understands the ins and outs of the position I am in better than myself. No one else knows the details of the opportunity in front of me the way I do. So why do I feel the need to justify my decision making process.
I don't.
and that's the realization that I had today, that it doesn't matter if someone else thinks I am making a wrong decision, because I didn't make the decision in the first place to get that person's approval, so why should I be seeking it now.
I shouldn't.
and that's what brings me here today is that I finally figured out part of the equation of "not caring what other people think." You don't need anyone else's approval. A decision is just that, a decision, it's on the decider to make that decision right or not and I have every intention of doing so, so.. no one else's input is necessary at this point
If they think I shouldn't do it, great.
If they think it's a terrible idea, great.
If they think it's the best opportunity I have ever been a part of, great.
None of that matters if I don't get out there and do the thing I need to do.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek the approval of others
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in people pleasing by trying to get others to agree with my decision making process
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be swayed in my conviction of the decisions I make by the opinions of people who don't have half of the context of my situation
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am making the wrong decision when someone else disagrees with it
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself as an authority when it comes to making decisions for my life
I see realize and understand that in a game where it is me vs me, yes, I am my own biggest opponent, but I am also my number one supporter and nobody wants me to win more than me so I need to trust myself and so I commit myself to, when and as someone disagrees with my decision making process, to listen to them, and not attempt to convince them that it is the right decision for me because at the end of the day whether I convince them or not has no bearing on my own success
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