Today is the start of quarter 3 in the year 2025. July 1st. Also Austin’s birthday, I need to text him. Anywho, following the advice of Jon Corteen and planning habits/creation on a quarter system I have put into effect a few simple things to measure over this quarter. Completing my course, doing my TT basics, self-forgiveness writing, and then stopping the habit of porn. I made these charts and as I was about to place them around the room I stopped because I had written in big letters on the side of all the sheets, Q3. And that’s what I wanted to reflect on. It’s quarter 3 of the year, sure. But it’s quarter 1 of me taking on life with a renewed sense of direction. With a renewed sense of clarity. With an idea of what I want and what it takes for me to accomplish that. The definition of peak performance is outperforming the person that I was yesterday. A few days ago that was an easy mark to hit, but when I woke up this morning it was time to get straight to work. These ideas are why I decided to mark my sheets with a Q1 because now I have an effective system of measuring my progress and making sure that every day when I lie down to rest I can self-honestly say to myself, today I did better and tomorrow I’m going to do it again. I am on the same page as my wife seeing where we are at and what needs to happen, and at this point in my life, at this point in my process, I really need to raise my standards, I really need to increase my baseline because what I’ve been doing just wasn’t cutting it. So when I look back 1,2, 10 years down the road and I see Q5, Q10, I’ll know it’s not an arbitrary title, but rather an indicator of where I am and where I am going, because when it comes to my own process and my own growth, that’s all that matters is where I am, and where I’m going.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not live by a standard of growth
“If you’re not growing your dying”
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allows myself to see realize and understand that life is growth and that I have not even been living because I haven’t been intentionally growing in any way
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deny myself my birthright which is to be as life by not striving for my utmost potential. I see realize and understand it is very easy to get lost in the system of the rat race and falling into the habit of working without purpose
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to stop striving for growth when it gets challenging, within this seeing realizing and understanding a common trend within myself that when something gets difficult I tend to avoid facing it, whether it be picking/chewing my lips while having a difficult conversation, picking up my phone to check for messages while doing some self-reflective writing, or eating to feel good when I’m experiencing physical discomfort. I see realize and understand that there will be no progress if I am unable to look myself in the eyes and challenge the man in front of me to do better
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only want to challenge myself if there is little to no risk in the challenge, within this participating in the fear of loss whether it be my social standing, money, or my station in life. In all growth there is loss
I see realize and understand a common trend within myself where I want things that require big action and big risk, but talk myself out of it or around it in the name of the preservation of my current character. Within this I see realize and understand that I have been actively fighting for my limitations and that to continue to do so will mean to continue this internal struggle of self wherein I do not stand up and face myself and so
I commit myself to track the few habits that I have set out for myself every single day of this quarter and at the end of it to come back to this writing and see where I stand today vs where I stand 12 weeks from now to objectively determine if I have stood up and faced myself or continued to participate in the same limiting beliefs that have enabled me to create the current reality that I am living in
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