Day 6: Never fall off; Never Stop

 Just got back from the Self-Perfected Enter the 1% Miami Edition event and wow. Lots of different points to process as well as follow through with. I'm here now standing triumphantly in the face of the time loop I have encountered in the past where I begin to get consistent with something and I stop for whatever reason and instead of continuing from that point, I allow myself to wallow and digress. This time I move forward, at the event I did not make time for myself to sit down and write my blogs and instead of allowing myself to fall off the deep end again, I am going to learn from my errors in the past and live the correction now. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, when and as I take a day off of a habit, wallow knee deep in the negative emotion I have experienced from not being perfect with my habits until I begin to drown in it, creating a new habit of not doing the thing I initially set out to do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the negative energy surrounding not being perfect, not seeing realizing and understanding that perfectionism is a program and that it is ok to fall, but it is not ok to stay fallen, within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, when and as I do something imperfect such as miss a day of a habit I am trying to create, to believe that I now have to start over from the beginning and do it over and over again until I get it perfect, I see realize and understand the ego trap of starting over when perfection is not achieved that is designed to keep me the same and so I forgive myself for my unconscious participation in patterns designed to keep me the same

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify not following through with my commitment to myself due to my awareness of the pattern described above, I see realize and understand that a circumstance can exist that makes it acceptable to not follow through with a commitment in its entirety, but that it is not acceptable to deliberately choose not to follow through with a commitment because of resistance and so I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in resistance to following through with my commitments

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I am not perfect that I am not enough

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it is better to do nothing at all than it is to do something and do it imperfectly

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trick myself into foolish thought patterns where I tell myself "this is the best way to do it" or "this is what will help me grow" not seeing realizing and understanding that the exact opposite is true

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand that it is possible to pursue perfection while being imperfect on the journey there

I see realize and understand my participation in patterns of perfectionism plays a significant role in my accepting and allowing of myself to stay the same and so

I commit myself, when and as I am creating a new habit/following through with a commitment and I fall/do it imperfectly, to continue going from where I am at now instead of starting over from where I was.