Monday, July 28, 2025

Day 40

My eyelids are heavy. resistance is a 10/10

Needless to say I do not want to do this, I don't want to spend 5 minutes writing my thoughts, I want to drone them out with entertainment and sleep, sounds productive. 

Enougb complaining, that only took up complaining, but also made little sense because, well, tired

I should not backspace and see what come sourr of here from this point on

TOdaay was a good day, I did no raell a car , but I gave myself a chance, becasue I swas ready and willing to take an up to grt a chcnace to sell a car, nbut I dook adavnage of it nad almost sold me one
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I am tired], fhis is trange , i dont remember deelinf like r/hos ebfrore 

tired eyes, jeavyt hands, but I am showing up and doing the mothafucking thing not for any readon other tham Oto check th e box and keep shofin up f=pk

I forgive myself that I have acceoed and akllowed myself to procrastinate
I forgive myself that I havea ccepted and allowednrsknfrk won\

lets try again shall we
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to prioritize discipline over consistency, I guess I mean lack of fiscipline over consistencyl

one more try
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowe myseflt to proritize enterntainment over disci[line
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disconnecy from my family in the name of getting donew hwat I dont get to do ever

I forgive myself that I hvae accepted and allowed myself to iscio disconnect from my family  in the name of getting thisngs done 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist the things that I must do

I forgive myself that I ave accepted and allowed myself to not have control ove my mind an dsicjpmines 
I commit myself to finish my TT and wirintg every day before playing games or watching entertainment for thr est of the month 

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