Day 39

 Today was another good day. I didn't sell a car, and that's ok, I am rhyming now and I don't know what to say, so I'm going to stop.

Alright let's try again, I didn't have any crazy reactions today, I didn't lose my cool about anything out of my control. I enjoyed my day. I made the most out of it, I was productive, and effective, and if anything I paved a path towards a better future by the actions I took today and I am going to continue doing so for the remainder of the night aka no porn tonight AT ALL. Jewell I am talking to you, don't search it, don't try and see it on accident. It ain't worth it homie. 

What is worth it, is sitting down to do my writing and my TT and completing the things that have to get done before doing the things I want to get done. It's fun being effective. It's rewarding being effective. It's fulfilling being effective. 

There's a part of me that wants to remain the same, there's a part of me that isn't ready to let go, but that part of me is just the part that's used to it, not the part that is supporting my utmost potential or helping me to accomplish my goals and see my dreams realized.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to worry about results and not concern myself with the journey that will get me there

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place a gap between a result and the steps necessary to achieve it 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realize and understand that results do not just happen, there are things that must be done to bridge the gap between any given moment and achieving a result

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realize and understand that bridging the gap between where I am at and the results I want doesn't have to be some crazy super disciplined religious like focus, but it is simply showing up and doing the little things over and over, keeping myself prepared at all times so that when an opportunity presents itself I am ready and I don't have to get ready

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to neglect the principle of if you stay ready you don't have to get ready within this I forgive myself that I have neglected to see realize and understand that being prepared for an opportunity does not just mean being ready, but it also means being willing and so I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to be ready AND willing to take advantage of any opportunity that may present itself

I see realize and understand there are some fundamental gaps in my work ethic that I have neglected over time and so I commit myself to answering every phone call that I can at work (with certain exceptions like having a customer at the dealership waiting on me) as a form of being willing to take advantage of opportunities that present themselves