Coming to Miami, I knew that I would be surrounded by the people who hold me accountable most. Knowing this I began to take an active role in walking my process because I knew there would not be any excuse to share that would justify me not walking process. It has fascinated me, when being asked about starting to write a blog, or how I have been doing, the point continues to come up about how I have been participating in excuses for far too long now.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that all of my excuses are valid, not seeing realizing and understanding that I have created a line between a reason and an excuse and within this not seeing realizing and understanding that a reason is only a justified excuse and so I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my excuses, for not walking my process or supporting myself and my family effectively, are justified
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the justification of my excuses, participating in thoughts such as "I'm not the only one that feels that way" or "it's ok for me feel this way", not seeing realizing and understanding that I was falling into the ego trap designed to keep me the same
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not hold myself accountable until I know that I will be held accountable by others, participating in whatever form of bullshit it may be, when it is just me and myself, but then beginning to try and change that point when it becomes apparent to other people and so within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only direct myself within the context of seeking the approval of others
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be ok with accepting and allowing excuses for myself, despite seeing realizing and understanding that whatever I accept and allow within myself, I will accept and allow within others, so within this I now see realize and understand that the reason I have trouble pushing others to walk through points in their own process, is because I have refused to push my self and so I forgive myself for my active participation in the current system that thrives on abuse
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the belief that one day I will wake up and decide to no longer participate in excuses, not seeing realizing and understanding that a decision has to be made and that no one or nothing can make that decision for me, nor take the action to change those points for me and so I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to make the decision to no longer accept and allow excuses for myself
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify not building my business
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify watching porn
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify not walking my process
I now see realize and understand that excuses=reasons and that excuses/reasons are just decisions that I make to stay the same and so
I commit myself to write out a list of 21 excuses that I make for myself and then break them down to see the points within each of them wherein I trick myself into remaining the same




