I used to do my writing very regularly focusing heavily on the self-forgiveness aspect and giving little if any attention to the actual commitments I was making. What I found at a certain point was that, I was not aware of what commitments I was deciding to honor, and also I discovered I was making commitments in such a way that I did not have to actually follow through and take any action to change. In this process there have been times where I have made commitments to change, that require me to take a definite action to live the change, and when I have followed through with those commitments I have seen a definite change. I made a commitment to myself yesterday to do my self-forgiveness writing process every day for the next 7 days. A definite action. And now I am honoring my commitment to self.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not honor the commitments that I have made to self, not seeing realizing and understanding that honoring the commitments made to self is how I can practically measure change in physical reality.
Only doing self-forgiveness and not following through with commitments is not real change it is only make believe change. To actually change I must do something different in physical reality
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that because I have a new/different thought/pattern of thoughts, that means that I have changed in physical reality. If I were to view myself from an outside perspective and only have a mental change occur, there would be no observable change in physical reality, thus leading me to realize that the only real change is made when something changes in physical reality
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fall into the ego trap of believing changing in my mind = changing in physical reality
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in blame for my life not changing at times when I have not done anything different in my life to cause my life to change. To reflect on my previous days' writing "I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have a choice when it comes to change. believing that if I continue participating in the thought patterns, habits, behaviors, etc. that I have always participated in that change will occur"
Nothing changes if nothing changes
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand that others do not see/acknowledge/recognize the change in my life because in physical reality, I am not doing a lot of things differently, thus not a lot has changed. I see realize and understand that if I want people around me to see/acknowledge/recognize the change in my life, then I must ACTually change things in my life
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be upset that certain points in my process have not ACTually changed when I have not ACTed any different, I see realize and understand that when I begin to ACT different I will begin to be different
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to work against myself within the context of creating the life of my desires
I want to have x, y, or z in my life and I take the time to write out what these things are and what steps I must take to create that, and I [sometimes] will make a commitments to do those things, the disservice I do for myself is when I do not follow through on those commitments, and so I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not follow through on my commitments that I make to myself
I see realize and understand that committing to something and following through with it is a point that I have struggled with in the past that is a [mental] barrier to creating my desires and so
I commit myself to make simple commitments to myself every day to support me to take actionable steps to change
I commit myself to post a line of self forgiveness along with the link to my blog post on facebook for every day during my seven day commitment
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